Sooooo, there is this dilemma; one that is fraught with many
opinions and emotions, one that might make or break the future, one that I’m
nervous to even acknowledge.
I went through a really hard year last year. It continued
for more than half of this year as well. The situation tried my very soul to
the core. There are really no words to describe it.
However, there was this tiny little stream of sunshine that
came at a point where I had washed my hands of relationships. It wasn’t overpowering,
but it was there. It teased me. It made me wonder if it could actually start looking up. It made me want it to.
But as with everything in life, it was complicated. Life
became happy and simple to me, but I knew it would be hard to understand for
everyone else. My thoughts turned once again to dreams that had been shattered,
and plans that were thrown out the window. It seemed surreal to me that I even
considered it! I was boycotting that kind
of life! I swore I wouldn’t be in that position again!
But here I am…..and I’m happy to be here….It feels different
this time…safer, I think.
A dear friend of mine says that’s how God works. Just when
you are about to completely throw in the towel; he gives you just enough to
keep you going. (A part of me thinks that’s a little mean, but I get the
purpose of it ha ha.) So I’m going to embrace it. And perhaps it may just turn
out perfect in the end. I have a feeling that it might.
Stay tuned……
